Life In Technicolor

There's a wild wind blowing
在我的地盤
Down the corner of my street
狂風無情地吹襲
Every night there the headlights are glowing
夜晚的街道充斥著武裝的軍備

Theres a cold war coming
從收音機得知
On the readio I heard
戰爭即將開打
Baby it's a violent world
這是個殘酷世界
Oh love don't let me go
別拋開心中的愛
Won't you take me where the streetlights glow
一起回到平靜的生活
I could hear it coming
我知道 和平會來到
I could hear the sirens sound
我聽見誘人的聲響
Now my feet won't touch the ground
我開始無憂無慮地飄浮

Time came a-creepin'
時鐘規律地走著
Oh and time's a loaded gun
像是把上了膛的槍
Every road is a ray of light
帶你走向希望的曙光
It goes o-o-on
時鐘規律地走著
Time only can lead you on
在這樣茫亂的夜晚
Still it's such a beautiful night
讓時間帶著你向前

Goodbye 2016...

Hey there...
Once again a year passed
how do you do?
I have been here for one year,
still in my way to use to it...
Just realize that
such situation is not that easy.
How to say...
sound like hard and tough to go through all
Especially for all of these
there are still the things you need to think
and figure out...
Nothing except tired.

Anyway, for me
2016 is another year for me to experience life
for me to gain more and learn more,
even know more about this world.
No matter how many sadness and happiness,
all gonna be my life's memories.

I always believe that
there is always sunshine after the rain,
and be positive then everything will comes true~
I believe myself.
Besides,
I knew that I'm getting slow,
slow to reach my target.
So don't stop, run fast!

Lastly,
I appreciate everyone who still stay with me
until then,
thanks everything for 2016,
and hope we can keep on running
to 2017, the whole new year~
Happy New Year! :)

Lost...

L.O.S.T

It seem like just combine by 4 simple alphabet 

but when it's happen

it's so hard to get yourself out of it...

And I think it is happening on me right now.

People always said,

" No matter what you do, remember don't lost yourself!"

It's always sound like easy as I always thought is

but when it's really happen...

Just have to admit that, I'm really lost...

I lost my way, lost my dream, lost myself, 

even the worst is I don't even know what I lost...

So shame...

Sometimes I really don't know what I'm doing

just because don't know what I done it for.

Feeling like, I lost my life, lost my smile,

and lost my happiness.

I'm not living for my own way,

not living as what I want,

and not living for myself anymore.

What I had done just remind me that is not me.

But I have no way where to get out.

I am lost, I am really lost...

 

Time management

我总认为
人生必须不断改变，不断追求，
让自己越来越好。
我也一直相信，
我的人生，只会越来越好，越来越精彩。
因为我坚信，
只要我坚持、肯努力，
我是不会输的。

命运一直都是在我手里，
我选择的，都是对的，
就算错，也会承受得住，
我只会越来越强，越来越好。
就算途中错过什么，
或者做错了什么，
我也绝不后悔，
毕竟，这是我的人生。

当然，
曾经我也质疑过，
但我发现，
有时候人也许花太多时间在质疑自己，
质疑自己的选择，自己的做法，
反而忘了当你正质疑着自己的时候，
有多少事与物已悄悄在你身边经过。
就这样，你错过了...

我是个没什么耐心的人，
觉得只要不是会“死人”的事情，
往往都是做了再打算。
你可以说我莽撞、说我求其，
甚至说我没一点考量，
但我知道时间有多重要，
对于生活中的小事，
我还真不想计较太多，
把太多时间花在那上面，
试想想，省下那些时间
我或许可以早点休息，
隔天可以赶上早一班公车，
在上班前买上一杯咖啡，
让自己一整天拥有足够的精神努力冲刺！

我觉得人是应该以事情的轻重
来分配必须花费的时间，
来分配处理的先后次序，
而不是把每样事情都视为如黄金般重要，
后把该先处理的事情忽略了，
最后还把自己都给搞垮了...
我知道工作的重要性，
为了生活而钱的目的，
但我更明白的，是多少人为了这些而垮，
百病缠身、精神崩溃。
我们到底是为了活着而赚钱，
还是为了钱而活着？

Macau life...

(Learning more on grammar... )

生氣的勇氣...

記得自己小時候脾氣不是很好

因為父親在我還很幼小就過世了

所以我們兄弟姊妹都算是寄宿在叔叔家

由婆婆帶大...

或許是這樣

小時候有很多的怨氣，

很不喜歡待在家裡，

回到家裡都很自閉，常躲在房裡

總會有那不是我的家的感覺...

還記得常跟同一屋簷下，同齡的堂姐吵架...

想想自己那時候的脾氣真的還蠻臭的...

可是隨著時間的增長，

遇到的越多的人、越多的事

經歷過了那些幼稚、不懂事的時光後，

漸漸的發現很多事情不是你想的那樣

不是你愛怎樣就能怎樣

然後，我們被逼長大，被逼成熟

被逼獨自面對現實的世界，

隨著，你也被逼改變，

讓自己可以融入這個世界...

改變後，

開始發現世界好像也跟著你在變，

以前覺得難吃的食物，突然覺得合胃口了

以前討厭的人，看著看著也覺得順眼了

從來不想嘗試的事情，突然覺得試一試也無妨...

原來常因小事可以生氣很久的心態，

現在反而連生氣的氣力都減少了，

覺得只要睡一教什麼都可以過去...

或許，曾經的勇氣都過去了...

連發脾氣的勇氣都沒了...

假如時光倒流...

 2015 六月份

又半年過去了...這幾個月你做了什麼？

還在追逐夢想嗎？

有離夢想更近一步了嗎？

剛剛放了十幾天的假期，

今天正式回去上班了...

個個問我假期過得如何？

老實說，我還真答不上，

問我好玩嗎？我就一笑而過罷了...

話說放假前期望蠻高的，

可是真正放假時，還真不知應該幹嘛...

或許這就是沒有計劃的後果吧... =.=

所以發現到了任何事真的都要有個計劃在，plan A plan B都好，

至少那樣才不會發生所謂的慌亂,不知所措...

但當然這假期也不完全白過，

休息是真的有好好休息過，

差不多每天睡到自然醒，

看電影看通宵... :P

是有看了幾部電影關於時光穿梭...

雖然說電影始終是虛幻、捏造的

但看完後，還是忍不住會想

如果真的可以時光倒流，

你，會想回到過去嗎？

以前就常會想這個問題，

由此還特別愛上周杰倫的「回到過去」

實話說我很念舊，

所以曾經對我好的人，送過我的所有東西，

我是真的擺在心上，記在腦海裡的...

有人問我，覺得我是個不留情的人，

可以很快忘記一些人與事...完全不留戀...

嗯...我是嗎? 你覺得呢？

如果我說，我現在還可以清楚記得小學同學每個人的全名，每個人的生日，

還有所有教過我的小學老師，甚至小學開始所收到的所有生日禮物，

你相信嗎？哈哈...太誇張了吧... 

因為我小學同學全班才12個，要記得不難啦... 哈哈...XP 

至於禮物，只要你說得出送過我的，

我是可以清楚描述那禮物，

那是因為所有送我的，我都是以真心感謝的心態來接收的...

畢竟我對開心的事，都記得比較久...

回歸正題，

如果可以時光倒流，回到過去

我想回到認識每個你們的開始

然後好好的認識每一個你們，

認真記住你們每一個的好，

每一個人的微笑，

那樣在未來當某個時候突然想起你們，

我可以發自內心的笑，默默地為你們送上祝福...

回想起那些年，

我們處得多快樂，玩得多瘋，哭得多真、笑得多燦爛...

我想你了...你，想我了嗎？朋友...

那些年幼稚的追星...

还记得小时候第一次追星

第一次看见电视上播放的MV，

第一次觉得世界上为什么有那么完美的男生

不论是样貌、身材、高度，

甚至声音跟笑容都觉得都很迷人。

第一次疯狂的追偶像剧，跟着迷上他们的每一首歌

他们的新闻，报道，全部都还收藏了起来，

还贴成一本本厚厚的剪报。

还会跟同学家人谈论哪一个比较帅，

争辩哪一个最厉害...

那时候感觉全世界好像到处都是他们的新闻，

那些年，自己好像都追着他们跑，

像是为了他们而活...

现在回忆起那些年，虽然是满满的稚气，

但是那个时候开始吗，

小小的心灵开始知道喜欢一个人是怎么一回事...

那时候应该才十岁...

原来喜欢是可以那么的夸张，那么的盲目，

记得自己可以为了看他们的电视节目而不睡觉，

每个晚上都要听他们的歌入睡...

可以真的很喜欢他们，然后听到他们的负面新闻而伤心

甚至可以为了他们跟朋友家人起争执...

看到他们哭还会一起落泪...

原来，喜欢一个人就是这么一回事...

虽然那些都是幼稚的心灵，

但毕竟他们是让我真心付出喜欢，

完全不求有任何回报的人物...

回忆当初，还是怀念那种心态，

那种童真，单纯...

十几年过去了，现在对追星是没有太大的动力

觉得偶像也不过如此了...

偶尔看看新闻，会八卦下所谓的艺人怎么样怎么样，

流行曲偶尔也会听一听，

偶像剧也会偶尔看几部打发时间...

但当年的那种纯真、似乎已经消失了....

其实人生也不是一样吗?

不管是工作、家庭或爱情,

其实都一直在循环，一直重复着同一种节拍，

只不过在不同的时机上，我们对上不同的事与物，

承受的结果不同了...

人不可能长不大，只是看你什么时候愿意去面对

什么时候愿意承认自己长大了...

回忆起，

我要谢谢那些年的稚气，也谢谢那些年一起幼稚的你们，

陪着我一起成长，一起长大，一起拥有现在的我们...

谢谢你们F4~ <3>

(今天的感触，来自于收音机的一首歌“烟火的季节” )

Me myself...

I always thought that to find someone who can know me well but never realize that actually the one who was knew me so well is only myself...

So many things happen just within these few days... Work, home, family....

It's so Irritation... T_____T

Always thinking talk to somebody but lastly the one will be myself... 

Now I realize how tough to be alone working at overseas to face the problems... Miss home... :S

The only things I can do is hypnotize myself everything will be fine...

Keep move on and cheer up...

So lesson today :

Don't rely your happiness on someone,

Nobody can make you happy except yourself... 

2015

Time flew like rocket 

It's so so fast 2015 is running right now...

Still remember the first time I started this blog was 2010...

Suddenly so emotional tonight...

Thinking back those years

Many things just happened, passed and even gone...

Meeting an old friend today who already knew from December 2007...

Lots memories remind me back...

From the young girl who just step in the society that time and become a lady who was surviving within this realistic society...

It seem like so many matters I have been get through...

No matter how happy, how sad, or how tough all during the years, now it just became past tense... 

Sometimes I always thinking back those moment and those people, 

I will missing it... 

But I know that it's just all memories 

Just put it as the lesson in your life, 

Let go all the passed and facing your life now with a positive thinking 

And appreciate all you're having right now...

Don't let regret happen before its too late...

To my pass tense,

Just let go our passed for tonight

Go for our future and the brand new life which is waiting for you...

Let put full stop to our memories now and say goodbye... 

Good luck... :)

Shape of my heart...

"Looking back on the things I've done

I was trying to be someone..."

Here I am half and a year in Macau...

Working hard as what I was planning before

To earn and save money for what I want...

Here I start a new life, new work, and new relationship...

Sometimes will get tired for sure

Most of those time 

Hometown always the first one which I miss the most...friends and family...

Especially when the mood is down...

People told me how hard it will be before I'm here... 

They told me how tough it will be to work overseas somemore I'm alone here

But as I told myself

Everything I have been get through will make me stronger... 

Overcome it and successful will be nearby and coming soon...

Some people said that not everyone can be always keep in positive thinking...

Even though sometimes me as well...

But I hope no matter how many negative thinking is happen on me,

It will always have someone is guiding me

and be the one which I insists for this all... 

At least I can keep moving on before I can't stand it anymore...

近况...

我知道

很久很久没有更新了...

工作的忙碌

总让人忘了时间是如何飞逝...

对不起啊部落格

我好像只要有事情，

才会跑来丢下一堆烦心的心情

然后就带着空空的心走掉...

没办法，不来这里发泄

我真不知道自己什么时候会垮掉...>.<

在澳门工作快三个月了，

自己身在国外，

有时候真的觉得很膛惶、

甚至有时候感觉好累好累，

好想放弃一切飞回国...

可是总有一些原因，

让自己吞下这一切忍了下来...

一直告诉自己过一阵子就会没事了、

再过一阵子自己就会习惯了...

可是怎么总感觉

所谓的那阵子还是没有过...?

今晚失眠了...

好讨厌自己总是像个男人那样

担心自己的未来，

有时候觉得

自己何不像一般的女人一样

只管把自己嫁出去就好了叻？

感觉自己的性格

真的像极了自己的名字，

男儿的性格...T.T

讨厌... 

希望那个

一直给我坚持下去的原因

会一直牢牢的固定着

因为它将会是我想要的未来...

为了未来，加油！

Travel life...

Well, this is the travel life

my working life right now...

It's already one year passed...

the year I busy for the travel life

which I dream for...

So,

it's not so relax and easy as I and you think,

honestly it's very tired and stress sometimes...

Don't you think that travel is full of fun,

but

when the time you're outstation,

you will know how tough the feeling is...

Seriously,

everytime when I back from overseas,

what appear in my mind is,"

I want to quit..."

Honestly! Cause it's really damn tired!

But...

once again I gained much experience from different country...

Well it contain pros and cons...

Just depend on how you treat it as...

So,am I enjoying? 

Hmmm...........I hope so... 

I always hope that my choice would bring me the best future...

Matta fair...

很忙的一个礼拜终于过去了...

全都为了今年最后的大型旅游展...

真的很忙很累啊〜

今天终于结束了，

明天开始恢复正常的上班时间...

这几个礼拜感觉过得很快，

人际关系方面好像也有点进度了

呵呵〜

       

其实

感觉有点满足也有点担心...

毕竟人家常说总有些关系

会因为太过了解而破裂...? 

在处理自己的心情的时候

或许我应该稍微控制一下，

不要让自己太过投入吧...? 

矛盾...好久没有这种感觉了...

以为对这方面已经冷淡了的我

原来还会有那么在意的心态...

Shooting for "SUMMER" ^-^

Well...
go for shooting yesterday
who was asked by my senior...
I was worried about the weather
since wangsa maju here already started raining
while we're on the way to the shooting destination
But
luckily once we reached there
the weather is just okay
no big sunshine and no rain...
Hahaha...
I like the weather so much~
Cuz no need to shooting under sunlight... XD
Between,
the environment at there really not bad...
Full of the green plant
So the photo took quite colourful...
And then I really have to said that
the photographer really very pity and sacrifice
for taking a good photo...
They have to lay down or hide inside the under brush
to catch up the angle for a photo...
So I'm proud with my senior
between I'm very satisfied with the outcome...
Maybe you guys can give some comment about the photo..?

Life

Honestly

Life is just like that

Repeat the same things

again again and again...

This is life...

I'm bored with it...

Can't help to live like that...

Actually

I got lots of goals to achieve

in my mind but

It seem still far from now 

for me to get it...

Well

Dream is never too big or far...

I will keep moving on until get it... 

So good night again... =)

那一晚...

如果说
回想起那一晚
那时候的
每个场景、每一句，
我还是很在意
偶尔还会有点激动，
感觉很辛苦
那么我该怎么办...?
是不是
要像现在这样
当什么事情都没发生过
就这样一直下去?
就算可以，
这个现状要我撑多久?
老实说
我真的不懂我可以坚持多久...
每当想起，心里还是隐隐作痛...
要我当什么事没发生过
我真的做不到...
只要想到将来，我就...
未来应该怎么办...?
谁都知道
逃避得了一时
也避不了一世...

在意不在意...

有多少个曾经你会忘记？

多少个回忆会让你不再想起？

如果那么容易忘记

就不会有那么多人

因为回忆而活在痛苦里...

人家说

两个恋人分手后还能做朋友

那是因为根本没有真正爱过；

如果分手后你很恨对方

那是因为你还爱着他...

在意不在意

能让你知道自己

对那个人的的情感有多深...

Hate the feeling!

I really don't like this feeling
Don't like to thinking back all those matters...
All those scene that were happened...

The feeling just like killing me
Remind me go back to that time...
Just get out of my mind please!
I don't think I need them anymore!
Stop remind me of those things!
Those memories, those people...

Stop influence me anymore!
I don't like to be emo... :(

Good life...

So
it's how long I didn't update here?
Wa...
already few months passed...
I'm really a lazy bug... >_<

Well,
it had been half year
since I working as a tour consultant...
I was learn a lots during this period...
So, is it enjoy?
Hmm...hmm...
Just as what you think...


Working life is full of stress seriously,
it's actually not all come from the work but
Sometimes,
stress was came from ourselves,
I really hope that life could be easy
but there is not...

Now I realize that sentences,

"Life is not that easy..."

Alright,

I wish I can enjoy it anyway...

and having fun with it... 

Good Life ! =)