我想珍惜...

沒想到

原來我也會爲了這事情而煩

真正想讓我珍惜的

在中學當兵過後

就再也沒有了

沒想到

如今我竟然會有這種感覺

那種無奈

想不在乎

但又放不下的感覺

啊~~~

友情真可貴...

我會解釋

是因爲我想珍惜...

Nothing...

So
What else I can say...?
Sorry...?
Hmph...
Sound like funny to say this...
Ya
Maybe I am too self-righteous...
Thought that 
I can settle all those things myself...
But
Now only I realize I am not a superman
I have no power
I am just an ordinary girl
I need help when get trouble
need some suggestion when I am lost
need some judgment when I am wrong..


But how come...?
That was my attitude
won't speak out when I get trouble
won't ask for help when I am lost...
Why...?
Because I don't like the feeling that 
may bring trouble to others
I felt like they don't like
scared that they don't like me...
That's why 
almost all the things I settle them myself...
Is it because 
I am forced to be independence since child
that's why this attitude kept followed me...?


What should I say...?
Nothing else I can say...
Thanks for those who still stand by my side
and give me fully support with reliance...
Thanks Elaine thanks Lily...
and Shin as well...
thanks girls... =)

What if...

What if there was no lie
Nothing wrong, nothing right... 
What if there was no time?
And no reason or rhyme...? 


What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life...? 

天后

我嫉妒你的爱 气势如虹
像个人气高居不下的天后
你要的不是我  而是一种虚荣
有人疼才显得多么出众


我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容
成全了你万众宠爱的天后
若爱只剩诱惑  只剩彼此忍受
别再互相折磨
因为我们都有错


如果有一天爱不再迷惑
足够去看清所有是非对错
直到那个时候
你在我的心中  将不再被歌颂
把你当做天后  不会再是我

Zzzz...

I thought it would be fine

Since that

I already got the preparation

before I do this decision...

But

now I only realize that

it is so pain...

I thought I am fine while

working in office

with lots of the office document

keep busy and busy...

But

actually it's not work at all...

Once I free

my mind starting remind me everything

every single moment that were happened...

There were some voice

ask me to give up

ask me to let go

but...

Zzzz...

Vinni is losing control now...

Let her get out from here please...

even just a moment...