It's complicated...

It's sooooooo

COMPLICATED!!!

Sometimes,

I am ready to let it go

but...

My mind keep remind me that

what I had promised...

Please give me more reason

to believe that

what I have done and existed all are worth...

Because...

I don't think that I still have effort

to keep it on anymore...

T ___ T

Even just give me a lie...

"Just take what you need and be on your way

And stop crying your heart out..."

I hate you...Huang Xiao Xu...

So...
Just leave me alone
I still remember that sentences
“How nice if it was only you and me in this world...”


Hmph...
Sometimes,
we might be more happy
without knowing anything which may influence our mood...
Shit...I am damn emo now...!
Only sleep for few hours yesterday and few minutes
in the afternoon but...
still can't fall in sleep at all... T_T
Is it insonmia...?

It's a lot things full in my mind
inside my brain...
within my heart...
Something like pain that made my tear drop...
I am such a weaker...
a stupid...
or more like a dumb...

I hate myself !!!

Stranger...

I am who I am...
So who?
Who am I...???
This is the first time I was panic
and have no idea what to do...
Only wait and wait...
Hmm...
I found that I was lost myself recently...
Vinni vinni...
Where are you?
T.T

She was just like a stranger...

12.December...

December 2011...

Which like the worst month for me

within 20 years...

I am damn tired...

I know what I did may affect a lots of changing...

and they came too suddenly...

Who can accept it?

No one...

Most of us don't know what we want...

We think we do, but we really don't...

Suddenly I feel like i have a lot more choice,

but I'm a bit bewildered with it...

I don't know should I persist until the end?

But I'm scared there's never have an end for it...

Since when...

Since when I got this feeling...

Its such a pressure for me...

It was seem like a secret in my heart

which don't know how to tell anyone...

Its too bad

and it was a bit pain...

(Crying...)